We’ve already covered my anxiety issues with creativity in art, but I’ve taken it to a new level. In the world of social media, the online quilter community is alive, well and active! I ventured in to an online swap organized by an online peep who threw out the idea of having a secret Santa swap via Twitter. I jumped right on that idea as a great way to venture in to my first-ever swap. (Disclosure – in the evenings, I sit with my iPad and enjoy an adult beverage while I read through the tweets of like-minded quilters, comics, and others.) These “adult beverages” get me to do things I might not normally do if my performance anxiety fears are not properly repressed.
ANYWAY, I signed up for my first swap. It took a little time for Amy to sort out the participants (I think there are over 50 of us) and get us all partnered off. There is a $15 limit, it can be hand made or not, and finished and in the mail by December 10th. Easy peasy, right? Right.
Sure. Unless the Secret Santa Swap partner is a quilting uberstar. Holy crap. When I saw the name I nearly fell over. My first reaction was to bail out. Honest. What do you do for someone like that? I spent the first week just spiraling. I spent the next week attempting to do some sashiko in her favorite colors. It came out nice, but not “here is something I made just for you” nice, but “what the hell are you on” nice. I caved in and set it aside. It’s not that bad, just not good enough to offer someone with her background. Crap. It’s just a swap, right? It’s not eternal judgement, right?
In the end, I decided to…..WAIT. I mailed the package today and I can’t really say what it is in it until it is received by my partner. I’ll reveal who it is (and what I sent) in a later post. In looking at the pictures of what other swappers sent (on a Flickr page) I’m feeling pretty okay about what I ended up doing. Not great….. but okay. That’s enough for me, the twin sister of Stuart Smalley: